On finding a useful distraction.

Okay, so here I am again. Finding myself in the exact same situation I was one year ago. I promised myself I will not write anything about my feelings here in my public blog, but what the hell.. at this point who cares about anything anymore?


Falling for someone with a horrible reputation is definitely a risky process. But knowing me, stubborn that I am, took the risk and believed all the sweet talks wishing that what he has for me is something different and real. Of course, I found out I was dead wrong shortly. I knew the exact reason for the fall out, and it sucks that up to the last minute I was denied of the truth. I am not mad, I am just disappointed that he was not man enough to tell it to my face. As what my blog states, the painful truth is always better than some fabricated sweet lie.


So here I was, informed that my time is up and that i was expired. O-kay. To top it up, things at work is not doing any good either. I was having the worst week of my life.


I'd like to think that what I am going through is bad karma, and at some point I'd like to dwell on the pain so guilt will not forever live within me. But I guess I'm only human, and needs a really good dose of distraction to keep me sane. What have I done so far?

• Drank three cups of coffee. Honestly. Yes, I did that.
• Bought a couple of good mags and books to read to keep me from going online. Not useful. LOL.
• shop shop shop.
• meet up with old friends.

I still have a lot to work on, especially on what to do when lapses strike me. I treat myself right now as an ongoing project, and when I am done I'm sure I will be as good as I was nearly 3 months ago. =)