When I say... "I am a Christian" :)

Whenever I say that I am a Christian, I love God, Jesus is my First Love, I go to church, I am part of a charismatic group, I am part of a community and/or I maintain a faith-based blog, I always get reactions that drives me to explain my beliefs or share my personal stories about my walk with Him.

I am sinful. I am doubtful. My spirit gets weak. I am stubborn. I get lazy. I question His plans. I insist what I want. I get mad, super mad that I sometimes make curses in my head. There are also times that I find it hard to concentrate during mass. I don't read my Bible that often. My list goes on with things that contradicts my claim of being a "Christian", maybe not exactly it is contradicting but maybe just not the way other people picture Christians.

I know that I am a sinner, however this doesn't stop me and well in fact, knowing it helps my confidence in My Father's love to get even stronger as I persevere to be closer to Him. I am a sinner but I am like a child who commits mistakes and He is a Father who embraces me and even shows me more attention and affection after every fall. Now tell me how can His love would not be enough for me to loudly proclaim that I am His daughter, I am a follower of Christ and that I love Him so much.

I honestly don't like it when people forget about my weaknesses of being a human. I want to be called a sinner who perseveres to walk closer to Him so that nothing can come between us. I am not pure but His love can cleanse me. On the other hand, it really irritates me when people use the I-am-a-sinner-I-am-really-bad-that's-why-I-don't-want-to-get-involve-with-Christianity reason or I-will-still-sin-I'll-just-go-to-church-if-and-when-i-decide-to-stop-sinning.

My thoughts are so random. I really don't know where I am going. LOLS. I just found this poem from my old notes and thought of making an intro blab instead of posting it plain. hehe. :p

When I say... "I am a Christian"

When I say... "I am a Christian"

I'm not shouting "I'm clean livin."

I'm whispering "I was lost,"

Now I'm found and forgiven.

When I say..."I am a Christian"

I don't speak of this with pride.

I'm confessing that I stumble

and need CHRIST to be my guide.

When I say... "I am a Christian"

I'm not trying to be strong.

I'm professing that I'm weak

and need HIS strength to carry on.

When I say... "I am a Christian"

I'm not bragging of success.

I'm admitting I have failed

and need God to clean my mess.

When I say... "I am a Christian"

I'm not claiming to be perfect,

My flaws are far too visible

but, God believes I am worth it.

When I say... "I am a Christian"

I still feel the sting of pain,

I have my share of heartaches

So I call upon His name.

When I say... "I am a Christian"

I'm not holier than thou,

I'm just a simple sinner

who received God's good grace, somehow.