LOST.

Okay, I've been busy doing too much stuff lately, mostly for school, but at the end of the day why do I feel like I haven't done anything at all? 

I never understood people who leave because they want to "find themselves." Anyone who really knows me is aware that it's CHANGES that I hate most in the world. I hate people leaving, changing environment, awkward moments with people you just met. But now, I suprisingly do. You know the feeling of having empty laughs with people surrounding you? And that everytime you accomplish something it seems that it's not enough? like you're not sure if it's someone that you're looking for or just plain something else. I've been a lot like that lately and I'm not sure if it's driven by the heavy workload I have in school or the fact that I refuse to go out with friends and socialize. And it doesn't help either that the people I'm always with are saying the same thing...that they're not happy anymore and desperately wants change. Okay, I'm not that desperate, but I definitely want change. I want to meet new people, do different things, go in a different environment. I want to go out of my comfort zone and try my luck elsewhere.

I know that I want to get out of this daily routine but I have no idea where to go from here. I don't know what I want, who I wanna be with, where to go...but I just know I have to figure it out now.