I am probably the only blogger in the world who is not comfortable or is not that happy when people I know read my posts. This blog used to be in private for several months until I decided to set it for public viewing late last year to get random thoughts from others. Since then, friends from everywhere just come up to me and tell me that they read my blog, most of the time teasing me and quoting quotes from one of my entries. Writing has always been my means to express my thoughts and emotions, and being cautious of what I say in my blog just because people read it just defeits its purpose.
To be honest I always want to talk about fun stuff when blogging. It's just that, those sad, pathetic moments always creep into my mind and I always end up talking about it! My close friends know that I am not very good at expressing my feelings and I normally express them through letters, that's why putting me on the spot and grilling me with the contents of my blog is just plain irritating for me.
I am seriously considering of setting my blog back in private mode so I can freely express whatever I wanna say again. Like, my disappointment.. my hope.. my plan.. my excitement!, my irritation, and my dream. And as long as people keep bugging me about how I feel right now, I will never even try write anything close to it!
but on second thought :)
...yes, I miss you like hell.
...no, I'm not that into you.
...give me more reasons and I'm out of here.
...get over it, everyone is laughing already.
...you are what you do.
...I f**king hate your stinking guts.
...countless gimiks here I come again!
...I'm still waiting for you.
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