dilemma.

If you happen to come across my blog and reading this entry and you hate EMO-stuff, then you can close this page now.

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Okay, don't say you haven't been warned.

My dilemma is back. The bliss I've been feeling this last few days have been sucked out of me. Big time. I know it's totally wrong and inappropriate, but I keep doing it. Why? Because it makes me happy. Even if i get slapped by the reality every now and then, I dismiss it. Because I'm a brat. I insist on doing what I want and stopping at nothing to have it all mine. I tried to avoid it, but the happiness is addicting. Should i go to the extremes and play along until it hurts so bad?

How could you avoid something that can put you to nirvana but hell as shit at the same time? For the longest time I've been trying not to feel the pain, but that stupid emotion manages to slide itself into my system one way or another. I'm ashamed to admit that I've never wanted anything so badly until now.

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I wish i could say more.

I guess this is proof that what Charlene wants...

Charlene doesn't always gets.